A few weeks ago as I was leading worship at The Oasis, I began singing out these words:
“You and me have history
When I look back I can see
You don’t forsake You never leave
I will hope I will believe”
I just sang that over and over. What no one knew is that the night before, Lily had experienced another episode of svt, the rapid heart rate. We couldn’t get her out of it at home and so I rushed her to the ER again. They ended up needing to administer medicine through an iv to get her out of it and we didn’t get back home until after 2a.m.
I was hopped up on adrenaline and worry- it is always very intense when we have to take her to the ER to get her out of this and it was hard to fall asleep, so when my alarm went off early Sunday morning, I wasn’t really feeling it. I got up and got ready and went to church and I was just very foggy. If I’m being completely honest I just wanted to get through the morning and go home and take a nap.
Towards the end of worship that morning, I began just sensing God’s overwhelming presence. There is nothing like getting into His presence to strengthen you
It will shift your mindset
it will change your perspective
it will give you a higher focus
I began hearing from Him “you and Me have history, you and Me have history and so that phrase was just welling up in my spirit before I ever sang it out that morning. By the time I began singing it out, I had changed it from Him singing to me- to me singing to Him – to thinking about the history that I do have with Him.
“You and me have history”
Then I began singing it as a declaration –
It was exactly the hope filled words that I needed in that moment. All that next week I began really thinking about what those words meant. We know we’re not to dwell on the past as far as mistakes made or negative things that have happened in our lives.That whole don’t look to the past, that’s not the direction you’re headed. But that’s not what I’m talking about.
There are some things we are to recall. To remember. It’s natural to reflect this time of year. We look back on what we accomplished and what we didn’t. We set new goals and are ready for a fresh start. We’re also remembering & reflecting how Jesus came for us and all the events that happened surrounding the birth of our Savior. How Jesus came for us and came upon this earth and eventually fulfilled the plan of His death and resurrection so that we would have a way to the Father- a way to be reconciled.
It’s also a time to look back on all the ways that He has been faithful in our lives and faithful in our families and to remember that even when we can’t see He is working things behind the scenes for our good.
You & me have history.
One of the definitions of history is: an established record of past events. I have an established history with Him. I trust Him. But when it comes to remembering God’s faithfulness, we can sometimes be forgetful.
One striking example of this is found in the book of Exodus, chapters 14 and 16. In the span of just a couple of chapters, we see the Israelites delivered from slavery and miraculously brought through the Red Sea, and then just a short time later they are grumbling about not having food to eat. And we want to say to them, “Don’t you remember what God literally just did for you? The water stood up like two walls, and you walked through the Red Sea on dry ground! Don’t you think that the God who can do that is also capable of giving you food to eat? Trust him!”
But I think a lot of us do the same sort of thing. God brings us through a trial, answers a prayer, and within a short time it’s almost forgotten. We’re already looking to the next struggle on the horizon and finding reasons to gripe and complain. When we should be finding ways of remembering God’s faithfulness.
In Joshua 3, we read of an amazing miracle that God performed for his people. He caused the Jordan River to stop flowing so they could cross on dry ground into the Promised Land. In Joshua 4:1-9, you can read where the Lord instructs them to build a memorial as a reminder of what He had done for them.
That’s the kind of history I’m talking about. Remember what the Lord has done for you. When I look back at the established history I have with my King, I can’t help but be filled with hope and expectation. He has and always will be faithful, kind, gracious and good.
Our family is carrying some things into this new year that we wish we weren’t. I wish Lily’s heart issues were already resolved. But one thing I know – He will be with me every step of the way.
Happy New Year!